It is because I can't sleep

Girls my age are most likely living their life to the fullest, partying, having dates, vacationing in different places, and the likes. 24 is not too young and not too old, it is a perfect age to do whatever you want  for as long as you are not doing illegal things. It is the age when you can already dream and imagine your perfect wedding, the details, the gown, the church, anything you want for it. How happy and relaxing to be young.

Not for me, as early as 24 I am already full of worries and doubts. I am worried for my family's health because I am not yet ready to lose my parents so I always pray to God to always give us good health and happy life. I am doubting myself if I can get the job I want and I am freaking nervous about it. I want to give my parents their own house and I am frustrated because I can't give it to them with my current situation. Last but not the least, I want to be married!! Yup! I am just 24 but almost ready for a wedding!! I want to have a baby at the age of 25 because I want to give my parents a grand child as soon as possible! But we can't so it will just stay as a "want".😢 

Can I call this a blog or a rant? Whatever!