Monday madness

I am lost and confused right now. I do not know what should I do or where should I go. No clue is given into why these things are happening to me. I just want to have a better life, a better future not just for me but also for my family. But why does everything seems out of my hand? Why does everytime I'm aiming for something big there is always a reason for me to struggle, to worry, to be depressed? I think it is unfair to me because I am not doing anything wrong, anything that will make other people suffer. Why Am I always suffering? Why Am I always challenged? I am weak, I am not that strong, that is why I do not get why these things happen to me. I am pleading for mercy, I am pleading for help, I am pleading for peace, I am pleading for blessings, I am pleading for miracle..please I am just weak.